Father’s Day 2014

Most know, this is not the easiest day for me. I miss the two dads in my life more than anything. One not more than the other. Both leave a gaping hole in my heart. And not a single Father’s Day passes in which I don’t yearn to hug them and smile with them. Neither of which I can do as they have both been gone for many years now. I hug my heart and hope the day passes quickly.

I think one of the hardest parts of missing the day with them is because it feels like a very secluded thing. I don’t think anyone can understand my pain and the hurt of missing them. Not to mention the confusion of celebration versus grief.

But a funny thing happened…a poem I wrote on Father’s Day 2011 (last year and this year) ended up with hundreds and hundreds of hits on Father’s Day weekend. I thought the first time it was a crazy fluke, but this year it happened again. I knew it wasn’t just a SEO dream come true. This poem is titled If Heaven had a Father’s Day.

And it is very clear to me that I am NOT the only one missing my Dad(s). I am not the only one that yearns for a Father’s Day hug from one that is no longer here. And the big hole in my heart is a just a bit bigger for all them too.

This year, I changed it up. I decided I would not be sad (as much), but I would celebrate the Dad in my life today. He is my husband. He is a terrific Father with two wonderful girls. A wonderful stepfather to my girl. I must admit, this is my first experience with video, but I did try my best. And you know what? It worked. I ended up way to busy to be sad.

This crafting of video and photos. The process of making the “tape” brought so much life to the present. How could I dwell on what I am missing when there is so much to be part of right now? My step girls are growing up way too fast.

So to my husband, I thank you…and I celebrate you…the girls and I loved making this for you. I think it is more precious than a simple card.

This is a hilarious response to what they know about him when I asked them both to tell me about their dad.

As a bonus…a little behind the scenes photo booth using a song for twins. It is an inside joke with our family, but oh so appropriate.

Happy Father’s Day to all!

17 thoughts on “Father’s Day 2014

  1. Great idea, Angelia to concentrate on creating something positive. You and your daughters (and your husband of course) will value this for years to come.
    You aren’t alone…I wince hearing people talk about things they are doing for Father’s Day because I miss mine so much.

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    1. It chokes me to say that six years have passed since I lost my step-father and five years since I lost my Daddy-O. This is the first Father’s Day I wasn’t crippled with emotion and that makes me a little sad. I don’t want to get over it. I think of them every second. But life does go on and my husband and step girls deserved a happy day together. One day they might miss their Dad, too, and have memories like these. I hope you made it through the day okay. My heart goes out to you.

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  2. Angelia you did such an AWESOME job on BOTH videos. I am soooooo impressed! And I Q&A’s in video one was so clever.

    You and I share the same thing, except with me it’s both my mothers. And as you, this year I decided to focus on the celebration of my mothers, both of who I feel so blessed to have had because they left me with so many wonderful memories, feelings and wisdom. And it’s incredible because I can still feel them with me.

    Happy Father’s Day to your husband!

    Great post, my friend…X

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