Sunday’s Healthy Reflection

On Monday…..ooops.

What reason weaves, by passion is undone.

– Alexander Pope

Do you follow what your heart craves?

As odd as it sounds, sometimes our logical minds can hold us back. Have you ever wanted to attempt a new career, run a marathon, or start your own business? Our brains might scream at us that it is safer to do what has been tried and true in the past, but don’t let the fear of the unknown stop you! We all spend a lot of time worrying and little time examining the calling of our own hearts. What are you passionate about? Is there a way that you can honor these feelings in a responsible way? Trying new things can be terrifying, but following our passions can make us feel alive and become some of our most memorable moments in life. The thrill of love, the depths of grief, and the joys of a new career…all would be impossible without passion.

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First off, my apologies, this wasn’t posted on Sunday. I woke up at three am Sunday morning very, very ill. I am rarely ill. I don’t know if it was a bug or if I just had too much chili at the annual chili cook-off.

All I know, is when I have trouble getting Pepto down the ole gullet AND am fearful it won’t stay down. It’s not a good thing. I wasn’t quite right all day yesterday. I started feeling a tiny bit better in the evening.

This morning I feel fine, whoo-hoo!

As for the reflection, I have mostly been a heart follower my whole life. I moved to a ginormous city (alone) at seventeen. Moved up the ladder at the company I began working for within six months. After a terrible loss in our family, I was brave enough to try and have another baby which resulted in Sydney.

My whole life, my heart has led most of the way and I am glad of it. There have been many instances where my mind took over. Doubt dominated the decision. I suffered needlessly because of it. Fear is a very funny thing, once it takes hold, it is very hard to shake.

NaNoWriMo would be most recent worry. My mind tells me I can’t do it, my heart says the story must be told. I hope by the time I get done examining it, the thirty days is not up.

My other head vs. heart battle is my current relationship. My heart loves Jason heart and soul with no doubt at all. My head tells me, being a step mom and trying to work with their mother, would be a very tough road. Don’t get me wrong, I love those children with ALL my heart, and if that’s all there was to it, I’d be in good shape.

The safer route? Definitely staying in my world, the one I know without a doubt, one primarily with me and Sydney. Maybe that one seems more in my control, definitely less danger. The heart route? Jason and the girls, a lifting and turning of a beautiful dance that might be hard to learn the steps, but so beautiful and rewarding when complete.

The unknown, a great abyss of doubt and wonder. The known, a river that flows gently with no dips or turns. The mind is certainly easier to tame doing what you know and staying safe. The heart is a little riskier, but with a greater achievement, a greater wealth of wild exaltation.

What is your battle today? Do you recognize your struggles? Will your passion win? Or your logic?

18 thoughts on “Sunday’s Healthy Reflection

  1. blissbait

    sorry you were sick!
    happy you’re feeling better….
    write write write write write!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    And Yes! That would be Your nano cheer for the day! 🙂

    You know, I’m a big heart follower. When I was twenty-four I got a tiny tattoo on my right hip that’s in my own handwriting. It says ‘sans limites~ ‘ and after the ~ I drew a tiny heart. The words mean ‘without limits’ and the whole thing means ‘follow your heart without limits’. Sans limites was Isadora Duncan’s motto. She was an artist who did that. Period. I so admired her that I took it up and have, for the most part, done a pretty good job. Fell into some fear and started following my brain in a few areas I wish I hadn’t, but I learned a lot and am back on my heart path. It’s all good I reckon! You’ll make the perfect choice for You! I know You will…

    Thanks for the thoughtful post and Cheers and Namaste. 🙂


  2. Peggy Nolan

    I hope you are feeling better!!

    My writing. My head and ego tell me that “the money’s too good to walk away from” My heart says “bulloney. Just do it.”

    Like you, I’m writing for the NaNo. I’m also in a writing class led by Bill Manville. Yesterday he told me to not stop writing my story. I felt encouraged.

    Yesterday, I taught yoga to my teacher peer group. My teacher said “I have nothing to say…that was awesome. You are more than ready.”

    It’s up to me to pull the trigger and cut the ties to a job that pays the mortgage. I want the book deal before doing it, though.


  3. Angelia, I really admire you for following your heart. It’s so hard to do! I just wrote about a mini-battle I’m struggling with and your post gave me some much needed encouragement. I want my passion and love to win, so I’m giving it the opportunity to try. Good luck deciding yours!


  4. Hope you are indeed feeling better!
    I am learning to become a heart follower. I used to be a head follower…but it kept me in a 7yr relationship with a guy who treated me awfully because I thought it was stupid to have spent so much time with someone for nothing.
    My changing point happened and I just broke it off, no tears, no arguements (well neither from me anyway). I knew in my heart it was the right thing to do and I have followed my heart in decisions ever since…..its brought me a wonderful new man and a great new job so far so I think I made the right decision 🙂

    Thanks for stopping by my blog 🙂


    1. Quincifer,

      I have a very similar 6yr relationship story. You are deserving of the best! So glad you listened to your heart and it turned to your advantage. Great to see you here! I enjoyed your blog very much.


    1. my kashi,

      Hey! Have I got a good one for you! Jason WON overall best chili. Why? Because it totally rocks!

      It’s so simple it’s crazy..He used 4lbs of spicy breakfast sausage, one can of Rotel chili, one can of tomato sauce, and chili seasonings. Voila! Amazing (not healthy though, not at all).


  5. Angelia, dear. I’m so taken with your blog. Your writing (obviously from the heart) is beautiful and moving. Even now, at 58, I still battle the mind vs heart thing. Unfortunately my heart speaks in chapters and my mind speaks in volumes…..very loudly. I’m working on it, though, continuously. Pray about it sweetie. What is meant to be will be.
    I’m going to recommend your blog to my daughter. She is a magnificent writer, able to create a written manuscript from the the smallest inspiration. But she lacks confidence.
    I’m so glad you’re feeling better and that your ill-feelings were short.


    1. Thank you for you kind words dear Weez, I love your analogy on heart vs mind. You are right, praying always brings it into focus, and my heart knows.

      I hope your daughter stops by. I especially hopes she find her confidence. Writing like that is a gift!


  6. Angelina,

    Take the leap of love with your sweetie if that’s how your heart feels. Is love every easy?!?

    What do I struggle with…technology. Augghhh! I love blogging, I want to grow but I’m overwhelmed and lost with social media, SEO and a whole lot more. Makes me want to throw in the towel.


    1. Tess,
      You are so right and I hear my heart song loud and clear… for technology, any new technology I struggle but with practice, practice, practice…I finally get it!

      Like Twitter, I never thought I would figure that one out. 🙂


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