I quit

Not life. Not spirit. Not soul. My job. I quit my job and I have no regrets.

No job is perfect, there are always little things here or there that could change. Sometimes workers might not see the “big” picture that a company does. One particular way is not always the best way and we have to rely on management, trusting they know what is best, for the smoothness of the company operation. It takes a lot of confidence knowing it’s not just you, but your moral character that is employed.

There was a time that a past job I had WAS near perfect. You can ask any former co-worker (not then of course) but NOW, now they will tell you. It was a great place. We had it perfect. Don’t know what you got til it’s gone kinda of thing (or sold in our case).

Regardless of what is or isn’t, what you know or don’t. There is something to be said for being with a company for over eleven years. A loyalty that is bred deep into the bones. It would take a lot to shake that. Maybe it would take promises of a BETTER place. A place more perfect, like the one you had before it was sold. Maybe it would take more money. More promises of freedom vs. conformity like you had at – said perfect job.

What if you were tempted and torn? A single parent. Extra income would sweeten the deal. Possibly even make you give up 26 days of vacation a year (which negates the income but I digress..). Maybe the premise of better job performance, more flexibility, friendlier staff, more rewards, and more recognitions might sway. Trips to Vegas. Diamonds. Cash. Maybe that would be enough to give something up you are completely happy with. And not just a promise for the better, but elite. Best of the best. Top of the line. How impressive and humbling to be recruited by a company like that.

Whatever the case, whatever sales pitch you receive, in the end, it’s YOUR decision to change after eleven years. Maybe you chose WRONG. Maybe the siren promises were just a mirage. Maybe you knew immediately your idea of customer service, the one ingrained from day one of your career, twenty years ago, is not the same as theirs. Maybe you don’t fit in with the elite, and never will. Maybe you start to question your own ability that you had been so confident of your whole working life. You lose your health. You lose your concentration. Your desire. Your will. Your drive. You feel like a worse worker because of your surroundings, and endless inefficiencies pointed out over and over.

Misconceptions. Misleads. The question remains, how could it go so wrong? How could you be so convinced (by others) you were perfect, and then be consistently torn down (by the same people)? It steals your livelihood, and starves the life force. It withers. It doubts. It dies. A desperate, flailing need to make sense of the insensible attacks. A perplex yearning to understand the call of profit over customer satisfaction in a no-matter-what frenzy. What if it questioned your personal integrity? Your life long need to fulfill the duty of responsible business.

The new job platform that supported and showcased your job talents is shaky. Building blocks are constantly moved, shifting around creating rifts, and unsteady ground. Earthquakes, and Tsunamis – implementation and change – invoke natural disasters from poor planning, and poor execution, that most can’t or won’t deal with, regardless if it’s part of service.

A flat-out refusal to adhere to the respect and vision of management. How long would it take to adjust to such major changes and eruptions? How can the pieces ever go together again quite right? How in the world do you stay steady and strong in such a volatile environment? It could take years of balancing, or years of building a new platform to withstand such battering. If someone is willing to take the time and dedication, that is, but most employees won’t. They refuse. They find it easier to sift through the rubble than learn a new craft.

Tell me something? How long did it take you to get skilled, REALLY skilled at a completely new job. One year? Two? I don’t mean you know what to do. I mean you master it and you are taught it and schooled in it. If you are completely saturated in that ONE skill. Maybe a year?

But what if it’s random? What if your training is hit or miss from day-to-day or week to week? Self-taught in stolen snatches. How long then? Two years? What if the main trainer doesn’t WANT you to know it well (or doesn’t know it well themselves). Maybe they do, and they’d rather be the knowledge holder, lest you learn it better, and show them up.

What if you are told that you will NEVER be forgotten for stepping up to the plate, completely out of your comfort zone, for the sake of the company, only for the same incredibly grateful person to forget it a year later? Would the time spent have been worth it? The tremendous effort it took when no one else would. You didn’t have the proper training, proper support, nor the tools, yet you still pursued to perform, driven by customer courtesy. Yet, despite all that, you were told to just walk away and go back to the rubble. Walk away from a service that truly serves the customer.

You can’t imagine the relief in a clients voice when they call and don’t have to be transferred around to the “right” person. ONE person can help them. How much value is that? To satisfy a customer? Is there a NUMBER you could put on that? For me personally, I HATE being transferred several times. When I want help….I want help! What irks me more? Having to be called back. It’s rarely timely, and rarely a time that is timely for me.

The little things make a difference. The right support makes a difference. The right environment, work ethics, and management make a difference. Respect makes a difference. Visions make a company. Worth, and appreciation build. Learning from mistakes grows. Polishing of skills smooths. Astounding support, and encouragement go a long way. I never doubted my skills. I never doubted the fire to satisfy and go above and beyond for an account, even if it took learning a whole new system. I never considered it wrong. And I wouldn’t couldn’t consider it any other way.

Now more than ever I know. I know exactly how NOT to be. I had excellent examples in each case. I am more firm and confident than ever in the merit that I uphold to serve my company and clients in the highest regard possible. Any less is not an option.

So I choose a new place, one more suited to my needs, desires, and character. One that blesses and benefits – justly and fairly. One that believes in team work for a client’s cause. But as I go, I bid you to look at the big picture. To look beyond a number. To find true benefit in actions. To give honorable service that exceeds and succeeds.

And to my old “new” job. It is SO good to be home. Two years is too long. I’m honored and thrilled you would welcome me back with open arms. Just give me a few weeks to recoup, and I’ll return refreshed and renewed with all my heart in servitude.

Names have not been used to protect the sanctity of company identity. This is a personal opinion based on personal experience and observations. It does not reflect, nor refer to any source other than personal thoughts. My perception, not fact, and not to be used as indicators of any factual knowledge.

48 thoughts on “I quit

  1. I am so happy for you they took you back! That is so wonderful. I wish you a great work time! I know what it is to be trained and not being ready yet to perform as good as I want to do my work. I know that day will come, but actually, I want to be there already πŸ™‚

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  2. Congratulations, Angelia. It sounds like you made the absolute right decision for you. Decisions like those are hard ones, but sometimes we need to do things not for the money, prestige, blah, blah or blah. Sometimes we need to make them because they are the right thing for our souls.

    Enjoy your two weeks off and then get back into that old job that you loved so much.

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  3. Kudos.
    I am at the point where you are. It is toxic. It is slowly killing me. It is making me supremely unhappy. I just don’t seem to find the courage. Your story gives me hope that one day I will be writing the same on my blog.
    Enjoy the day!
    Erin

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  4. You end up spending so much time at work that it is my belief you must, if at all possible, ensure that it is something you enjoy doing. So I am glad you were able to get things sorted out and wish you well in your old/new job πŸ™‚

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  5. Sometimes it’s so hard to discern where to go, what to do. My hubby just had a wonderful job opportunity come up which would mean a big move from one state to another. We turned it down so as not to upset our son’s high school years. Will we regret turning it down, I’m not sure how to answer that. We are hoping to wait 3 more years before a big move.

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    1. Michelle-That is really tough. That was my struggle – discernment. I always felt right away I shouldn’t have gone with greed, but I am positive my experience will only make me a better person. I know you will know when the right job and right time comes along.

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  6. I wish you all the luck in the world at your new job! I am trying to talk my husband into leaving his job. He is so unhappy. I hate when people feel sad and distressed and there is something we can do about it. Good luck!

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  7. Yogasavy

    Congratulations! I love what I am doing and look forward to it everyday. I wish you the same and hope you find your passion as well

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    1. Yogasavy-I do love the job I do, just wasn’t happy with the environment. I can imagine your work is very, very fulfilling! You help a lot of people find their center, and their peace. Awesome!

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  8. yay for new jobs! and if the old job doesnt work for you, move on. thank them for the lessons learned and move on.

    you’d feel better and sleep better.

    shuttling in from SITS πŸ™‚

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  9. Yay for the new “old” job! I think the company also valued your work if they’re taking you back. So I’m sure you’ll feel very comfortable soon again…

    I wish you the best of luck!

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  10. I think it’s all about what’s right for you… I’ve walked away from jobs I hated and had to make tough decisions about leaving ones I loved… if you’re happy with your decision and it works for your fam than more power to you!
    stopping by from SITS

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  11. Following your heart is always the way to achieve true happiness. I tried to comment here twice last night from FB but it wasn’t in the cards πŸ™‚ Best of luck!! ~ Renee

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  12. I walked out of a job I loved about 18 months ago because I had enough of the boss. I loved my work, I loved my clientale, I loved everything BUT the man who wrote my paychecks. And he made each day horrific.

    A week later, I swore I would never work in a stressful environment like that again, no matter what. I walked into a small business and became a receptionist. I make half the money I did before – but somehow, God blessed it. I have in 18 months paid off all my debt (never thought that possible!) gotten rid of a lot of emotional hangups, lost some weight and repaired my battered marriage.

    Work changes are good sometimes! ::pats on back:: Happy for you!

    Btw…stopping by from SITS!

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    1. Katie-Thank you for the pats. I needed them and I appreciate your very insightful comment. I am happy you recognized your “true” value and earned so many rewards from it. Awesome!

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  13. Angelia,
    I am happy for you. I sense a real relief in returning to where you were before. I have been with the same company for almost 13 years, and it is most definitely a place that feels “right”….I know what you mean….

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  14. Hi Angela
    I enjoy my job but the real bonus, is the people.
    Sure we all go to work to make a living but we need to go to work to interact with people.
    It’s the interaction that keeps us sane.

    Hope things work out for you Angela and that the economy picks up for us all.

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  15. Sorry I’m so late in checking in with this. I am so happy for you because I know how UNHAPPY you were. I know things will turn around for you. You deserve the best!
    (this pollen is kicking my butt up here in GA and I’ve been behind on catchint up from last week’s wanderlust tour!)

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  16. When this was posted I meant to read it, but I have a few people in my blog surfer it fills up quick and this got WAY down on the list.

    Wow! I am thinking that not only was the decision a relief, writing that gave you some relief. Whew. I don’t know that I breathed much while reading that. I imagined words and emotion just tumbling out.

    Many, many, many people are not happy at their jobs. I believe to have a job that allows you to be happy and pay your bills is a true blessing. I also think that recognizing that a job is “toxic” (using a word I have seen other post) and getting out of it is a fabulous gift too.

    I am happy that you realized you didn’t belong AND very happy that you are able to go back to a place you do belong. You are very blessed.

    Thank you for sharing your opinions (and for doing it in such a captivating way), I hope that maybe others will read this and recognize that they can save themselves yet!

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