I wish I could say it was easy.
I wish I was one of those people who engages and connects with physical things and not so much more with cyber things.
I wish I could say it didn’t change me, but it did…..
You wouldn’t think it would. A mere 24-hours with no access to games, Facebook, or email. No big deal, right? Normal people do it every day.
Do you know the last time I was without internet access? Before my laptop days…..before my smart phone days…..too long ago to really remember.
It makes me realize how I traded out one set of addictions for another (theory of my life).
The good news is…I did it.
I shut down the Mac. I powered off the iPhone and I put it on a shelf for 24-hours.
In fact, I left my phone on the shelf and left town. It was not even in my possession.
In a way I think I cheated a little. I knew I would be in a car for 6 hours of the 24, and in my defense, I have service during those three hours. But isn’t it a little easier to entertain oneself in the car versus a regular every day? Probably…
At 8pm, I faced the unknown. What do I do with NO social networking? No screen to tap. No notifications to review. I felt really
bitchy twitchy. I felt a little out-of-body. I tried watching TV, but I just couldn’t get into it. Finally, Sydney, Brandon, and I went to out to eat. We left Jason on his Mac (no fasting for him!). Upon return, we fired up RockBand and I banged out my frustrations on the drums (such a great stress reliever). We actually toured with our band and did pretty well.
I went to bed EARLY, and the next morning…it wasn’t so bad. We left for Oklahoma to see my mom. I read a book (and darn near finished it). I tried not to look at Jason or Sydney’s phone. I was a little fearful I would SNATCH it from their hands and begin tap tap tapping the screen. I had to hold my fingertips close to my chest. Thankfully, I never embarrassed myself in the heat of an iPhone moment.
I watched the clock most of the day, and hated myself for it.
Sydney and Brandon watched ME most of the day (to see if I’d break down? Cry? Convulse?).
I did none of those things. I imagined life without an iPhone and internet service. I imagined the olden days when I lived in the country and we did not even have cable.
We explored the creek beds. We played board games. We talked. We listened. We had friends and family we visited in person.
Maybe, at the end of this experiment, I realized…….there are a lot of issues about the operation of my life I need to examine.
I’ll be honest. I really didn’t miss much. In fact, I probably missed the internet more than it missed me.
There were certainly some emails I expected to get that I didn’t.
It was disappointing…..yes…..but also, life enhancing.
I don’t have to be addicted to anything. I can put my phone down for a day.
I can disappear and it’s ALL okay.
I thought this post would come out differently. I planned this post to be funny. Amazing what happens when you are faced with yourself and nothing in between you and your soul.
I highly urge you to unplug one day, and just see what happens to the you that is waiting there.
“Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become. -Unknown