On Monday…..ooops.

What reason weaves, by passion is undone.

– Alexander Pope

Do you follow what your heart craves?

As odd as it sounds, sometimes our logical minds can hold us back. Have you ever wanted to attempt a new career, run a marathon, or start your own business? Our brains might scream at us that it is safer to do what has been tried and true in the past, but don’t let the fear of the unknown stop you! We all spend a lot of time worrying and little time examining the calling of our own hearts. What are you passionate about? Is there a way that you can honor these feelings in a responsible way? Trying new things can be terrifying, but following our passions can make us feel alive and become some of our most memorable moments in life. The thrill of love, the depths of grief, and the joys of a new career…all would be impossible without passion.

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First off, my apologies, this wasn’t posted on Sunday. I woke up at three am Sunday morning very, very ill. I am rarely ill. I don’t know if it was a bug or if I just had too much chili at the annual chili cook-off.

All I know, is when I have trouble getting Pepto down the ole gullet AND am fearful it won’t stay down. It’s not a good thing. I wasn’t quite right all day yesterday. I started feeling a tiny bit better in the evening.

This morning I feel fine, whoo-hoo!

As for the reflection, I have mostly been a heart follower my whole life. I moved to a ginormous city (alone) at seventeen. Moved up the ladder at the company I began working for within six months. After a terrible loss in our family, I was brave enough to try and have another baby which resulted in Sydney.

My whole life, my heart has led most of the way and I am glad of it. There have been many instances where my mind took over. Doubt dominated the decision. I suffered needlessly because of it. Fear is a very funny thing, once it takes hold, it is very hard to shake.

NaNoWriMo would be most recent worry. My mind tells me I can’t do it, my heart says the story must be told. I hope by the time I get done examining it, the thirty days is not up.

My other head vs. heart battle is my current relationship. My heart loves Jason heart and soul with no doubt at all. My head tells me, being a step mom and trying to work with their mother, would be a very tough road. Don’t get me wrong, I love those children with ALL my heart, and if that’s all there was to it, I’d be in good shape.

The safer route? Definitely staying in my world, the one I know without a doubt, one primarily with me and Sydney. Maybe that one seems more in my control, definitely less danger. The heart route? Jason and the girls, a lifting and turning of a beautiful dance that might be hard to learn the steps, but so beautiful and rewarding when complete.

The unknown, a great abyss of doubt and wonder. The known, a river that flows gently with no dips or turns. The mind is certainly easier to tame doing what you know and staying safe. The heart is a little riskier, but with a greater achievement, a greater wealth of wild exaltation.

What is your battle today? Do you recognize your struggles? Will your passion win? Or your logic?